Anxiety

Why are all these feelings rising up now?
I can hardly contain them.
What has happened to me?
I thought I was prepared.
But you changed everything.
I know this won't work.
But I want it anyway.
Its distracting me.
Being so close, yet so far.
I don't understand you.
Do you, or don't you?
I just need an answer.

I'm panicking.
I feel like I can't breathe.
What do I do?