Lies

Everyone tells lies.
Some hurt, others don't.
But would you tell a lie for the greater good?
To get you through the night?

Just A Feeling - Maroon 5

Obsessed, depressed at the same time
I can't even walk in a straight line
I'm a light in the dark, no sunshine
No sunshine, no sunshine

She cries, "This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
'Cause it's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling
(I can't believe that it's over)

I think I finally understand.
I told myself a lie.
One I could easily believe.
One that made it right in mind.
But really, there was no justification.
Only infatuation.

What is this word love that we throw around?
I thought I understood.
But each and every day I find the meaning slipping away.
It's so complex, so screwed up.
There's so much I wish I could understand.
But now is not the time.
I doubt there ever will be a time.
One day it will just hit me, like today's epiphany.
I'm sorry.
I keep searching and when I get close I run away.
Much like a bomb.
Unstable, complex, destructive.
But that's not the point.
To those that I've hurt I apologise.
I keep running away from the truth.
I keep fabricating lies to justify my actions.
In reality, I'm the one who's done wrong.

I wish I really knew what all this meant.
I had it once.
It was crystal clear in my mind before.
But now I'm tainted, broken.
I doubt I'll ever find what it means again.
Let alone, experience it again.
Do I continue to live in the dark?
Or do I seek the light?
I don't know.
I don't think I ever will.