What's Left?

Everything comes back to haunt me.
Back then, it was all fun and games.
At least to you anyway.
For me, those are just painful memories.
You'll never know how screwed up this is.
You'll never know anything.
Because now, there's nothing left.

Last Chance - Maroon 5

Out of sight not out of mind
You want the world, I'll give you mine
Cause your the girl I'll never find
And I'm the boy you left behind
I bet you think you're satisfied

I don't think you'll ever understand.
That person you left behind doesn't exist anymore.
So don't ever try coming back.
You ruined so much for me.
Every occasion I once held special.
My birthday, Christmas and the list goes on.
Now all I have left is this storm of self-loathing and despair.
And all that is hidden behind my composure.
A facade of lies.
That's what is left behind.
A mess, a wreck, a disaster.
How could you?
You ignored everything I ever said to you.
I confided in you.
Was it all a big mistake? Yes.
I should have never trusted you.
I should have known better.
But now I know.
All your lies are so clear now.
But it doesn't matter.
I'm better off without you.
I'd rather be who I am now than be with you.
Because when I see you now, I realise how much better off I am.
Even if I am alone, at least I have self respect.
Actually I don't, but at least I'm not like you.
This fucked up piece of shit that I am, is better than what you're doing right now.
Taking advantage of other people like me.
I wish I could say I hate you.
Unfortunately I understand everything you did.
It was typical of you.
I just couldn't see until now.
But that doesn't matter.

We were never meant to be.
Because I'm meant to be this way.
I'm just hoping that this will be over soon.